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You can't just come and sweep me off my feet.
Don't I get a say in that?

My stupid heart, oh please, just stop.
Let me be intelligent, not emotional, not so easy to fool.
Not again.

Can't control that beating, taunting me, reminding me that I always fall for all your words.
Please, please, just stop, not again.

Am I not all grown up?
Shouldn't I know better.


Why do we always fall for it, for them, for you, for me, for all the lies life presents us with.

Why aren't we allowed to control our feelings?!
It's a cruel world. It's unfair, it's like life laughing in our faces.

It isn't fair.

Who chose this life for me if it wasn't me?

When I opened my mouth the first time today I realized my voice was gone hoarse.

Was it the endless weeping or just the cold air in my wet hair when I couldn't bear the sight of you anymore?


Who will answer my questions if it won't be me?